BLOGGING

 

So this is long overdue, I’m surprised I even know the link to my own blog, I’m so bad.

The thing is, there was a time when words kept me enslaved, writing around the clock, then there was the DROUGHT, and boy has it been rough.

Even now, I’m writing with the few drops I found stored in my hump and hoping it’s enough.

You see, a very smart friend of mine has found her way to this abyss, and seems to be having a whale of a good time, so much so, that another mutual friend enquired about this here, fossil, and I am ashamed to even admit it exists.

I always said writing, in fact any talent, shouldn’t be a chore, when it becomes that then you’re no longer enjoying it, and I’m a firm believer of not doing things I no longer enjoy.

I love words, and they do me, but from time to time, we become estranged, until somebody decides to rekindle the affair, hoping that the love is still there, burning and bright, like a diamond in Transkei.

So it’s 2013, a new season and reason to rhyme even if it’s fiction, and hope nobody picks up that you’re really waffling.

So much has happened since the last time I was here, so perhaps the right thing to do, would be to discuss what it is that took me away, and maybe reflect on what 2012 was, as it undoubtedly earned itself the title of being one of the best years of my life, to date.

You may say I’m young, but you see stranger, this person has lived, and every once in a while stumbles upon a great 12 months of life, where everything and anything happens, and that year then ends up in the hall of fame.

Out of these great years, I always find amazing friends, who understand, love and accept me for the incredibly crazy, hot mess I am and we then proceed to build a family bond, and create lifetime memories, this started off in my final and best year in Joburg, and it happened again last year.

Anyhow highlights of 2012, which I may go into more detail about, IF the great force arises again. (Goose, question me into writing again.)

Sooooo, 2012 :

January :

I quit my 1^st job, which taxed me, challenged me and taught me most of what I know today, for which I will always be grateful for. Leaving the company in tears and bitter was never the plan though, but life is unpredictable blah, blah, glad I got over that and managed to save the good relationship I had with the team.

February :

I was proud of myself for leaving the job, but scared senseless of the ‘unknown’. Which I think is what led to the joy that the year became, and met one of my closest friends to date whom I now treasure as a sistah, The Opium Shessiah * cues BASH song for you, Nomachina *, and in this same month gave birth to the amazing group of friends I made in Cape Town, called the Pantsulers. To meet and get along with such different, dynamic, smart, open-minded and FUNNY girls like these, is but a pleasure, each and every time I’m with either/all of them.

March :

I had a crush, which I loathe. I find crushes to be so exhausting yet fun, but still exhausting. The wear and tear comes from the mind games I start, and then get lost then tired in, and want to quickly erase as fast as I started them, making crushes nothing more than a mental workout for me.

So BOO to crushes!

Oh, 1^st month of unemployment and FAITHployment, THE NERVES that were me(coloured, TAHNI accent).

 

April :

Friendships grew, along with hearts and fights and all things emotional, which led to a lot of confusion on my part, but life was still fun, AND I got a job, so YAY to going out on a limb, and knocking until the door opens!

May :

I explored, what it is that I liked, I made it known what I wanted, and won in some cases, and only slightly failed in one, which weirdly was the biggest goal, but alas, all in good time.

This month, started the storyboard of a funny film, called “ That Awkward Moment” which is yet to be filmed, but still conjures many a chuckle amongst the creative team.

June:

I was now in Joburg, and finding my way in my job and everything else. My best friend and I became closer, and renewed our bond, leaving each other knowing distance and time were but an illusion for us.

People came and went, along with their energies, and lead to the realisation that I am a sponge and feed off whatever aura that people bring. That said, negative energy, otherwise known as bitching, complaining, “always a victim”, are not allowed into my bubble. NO SIR! Here, we have AA meetings for the continuously happy and optimistic people. The kinda party the others are looking for will be found on Corner GET-THE-HELL-AWAY-FROM-ME-WITH-YOUR-HEAVINESS Road and AINT-NOBODY-GOT-TIME-FOR-THAT Lane, press the buzzer and the butler will greet you with a blanket of self-pity and show you to the Wallow Room. No need to send post-cards now, imagination is better.

July :

I moved back to Cape Town, and found my strength again. In life, we know what we possess, but somewhere along the way, we hide our light, until somehow you rekindle it.

This is what I did, and on my marks I was and haven’t stopped running since.

This was my mom’s birthday month, and I brought her up to CTN for a fully-sponsored(by me) birthday weekend. Something I had always dreamed of and doing it for her, made me feel like I was walking on sunshine. Needless to say, this sparked a vow that each year, regardless of where I am in life, I will do something great(on her birthday) for the one person who’s made sure every waking day I have, that I have a purpose, dreams, structure and direction.

To be a parent is to sacrifice your life as you know it, and this lady is its personification.

August :

Hmmmm, months are becoming blurry now… oh wait, a friend moved to Cape Town, and stayed with me, which led to a voice note, called “High Friday Girls”, yes that’s the company I keep, I plead guilty to this association.

Oh, I also bought a scooter, and high-fived myself on a good investment-up until my mum and everybody else who’s scared of two-wheels, told me I’d die- and loved having it.

September :

My scooter threw me to the ground, and left me with an elbow that’s yet to fully heal *sigh*.

So maybe mama and her peanut gallery, might, uhm, know  better?

October-December :

I’ve joined these as they all became one month to me, the sun was back and fun was to be had.

I lost a childhood friend, not through death, that would at least been final, but through being unfriended-yes, facebook has taken over our lives, especially our speech.

I for one, don’t let go of friends or people, and know that as we found our way to each other, so we will again, for now, I guess, things must be the way they are.

Two friends came back into my life, which made me stand by the belief of, those who you call friends will stay with you, if they were meant to be in your life, whenever and for however long they must.

A boring year you say?

Well if twas a Mills and Boons/Cathy and Mark story you were looking for, this is what I have to say :

“the subscriber you have dialled, does not exist”, for this is real life my friend, and what you and I find enthralling may and doesn’t have to be the same…

So what did I learn from last year and all that happened?

LIFE GOES ON, in exactly the way you may or may not want it to. It’s your party YO, so you either dance like MC Hammer or you hibernate until rabbits hatch out of easter eggs.

I for one, choose to MAKE THE CIRCLE BIGGER!

TO 2013, YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIISH!